Monday 15 October 2012

Trust. What is Trust?

You know this year has been a massive learning curve to actually trust God and know that He has everything all sorted. For years I have been sat in my comfortable house, going to church in my car knowing that I can always afford to put petrol in it. I have amazing friends who are always there for me even though they live across the ditch from me at the moment. I have an amazing family who are always wanting the best for me. I have clothes, food, a roof over my head ... in other words I have everything I need and want. I can say that I never really knew the meaning of actually trusting that He has a plan and will make it happen.
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declare the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" -Jeremiah 29:11
I always thought that this was one of those 'cliche' quotes from the bible and I felt it had lost it's meaning because of it. Just know that a quote from the bible never can and never will lose it's meaning. I was looking into this quote in my personal prayer time the other day, again I used to read it and think that if I have God in my life He will make it perfect, I came to the realisation that having God in your life does not make it perfect. Nowhere in that quote does it say that, how could I be so silly as to think that, I should read the quote and take in what it actually says not what I think it says. '...plans to give you a hope...' My plans this year were to come to Australia save some souls and go home again. Never did I think I would end up being really sick, lose a Grandparent and face some hurts from my past ... but I did and in that I have learnt to trust God, really trust in Him. It probably sounds silly but I now realise that God isn't going to make your life perfect and amazing and coat it in pretty glitter, in fact following God isn't always the easy option, but through all your pain, hurt, anguish He gives you hope, a hope for something more, a hope for others, a hope to keep living through your pain and to help others through theirs.

Anyway I must go as the sun has gone down, the bats are out and I am being eaten alive by mosquitoes.

1 comment:

  1. Katrina, this is so beautiful. You really know how to touch peoples' hearts. Thanks for giving me this as a walk out the door to a new day- it'll be on my mind and in my prayers. God Bless.
    Kate x

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