Sad Realization

Over the past few hours, myself and a few of my close, holy friends have come to the sad conclusion that we are, what you would call: old. Granted, we haven't quite reached the ripe old age where we need to start using walking sticks, bifocals and knitting needles ... although I do like to knit from time to time. We have only just hit the ages of Seventeen and Eighteen and in the rare case Fourteen (you know who you are :p) We have all hit the awkward age of, no longer a child, but not quite an adult. What brought all this on you may ask? Well tonight we participated in what is called a progressive dinner, where we go from one house and on to the next for a different course of a meal. It is coming towards the end of the school year and we are starting to integrate the older kids from the younger youth group, Tahu, into the older youth group, Lighthouse. Over the course of the evening we had the privilege watching the actions and, you could say, the boisterous behaviour of the younger ones. There is nothing wrong with how the younger ones were acting but something there was really starting to grate upon my friends and I. Over a year ago, we couldn't understand why the older Lighthouse attendees were what we would call 'anti-fun', but we are them now!!! I have become 'anti-fun' ... well not exactly 'anti-fun' but wanting something more ... wanting something that appeals to a slightly older age. I love doing silly things and hanging out and making noise when appropriate, but all the time? The madness and craziness just is too much for me. It has come to a point where it is no longer fun. I still absolutely LOVE youth group, but I love the calm, structured youth group. Again probably another sign that I am becoming old :(

The  next few weeks of my life will be life challenging ones, moving on from one chapter to the next, with the end of my schooling life, something that has always been a strong influence and structured constant in my life. Moving to Australia for a year will also be a shock to the system; maybe all this sudden change in my life has brought around this unease. Maybe the thought of the unknown is truly settling in, I know exactly what NET is all about, but it's just so different, my routine will be changed and my surroundings. I thought I loved change, but I guess I was wrong.

"You have nothing to worry about in your little boat when Jesus is the Helmsman and Mary is the Star. Let the storm come" - Padre Pio